Monday, 14 September 2015

Wild child stay wild

Random selfie. Because I like 

Hung out with my aunt and uncle yesterday. They migrated almost 40 years ago and I haven't seen them in more than 10 years before this, but this is my second time meeting them this year. 

#progress

Aunt is the slightly younger sister of my dad. Second child. Yesterday she revealed that she was the "samseng" when they were kids. Dad was the quiet good boy, and she was the ... boy. 

I said it's a second child thing. And she said to me, from a wild child to a wild child: Stay Wild. 

I should. Why lose myself to outside pressure and get nothing in return other than an identity crisis? 

So

 Stay wild, stay curious.

That's what J_Fish has to say~ Au Revoir~ 

Thursday, 10 September 2015

雨伞下的浪漫


这个月钱花的很凶。月中不到钱都快花光了。补了两颗牙就等于在户口里炸了两弹。

晚上在露天街边吃饭时,聊着天。突然他说了一句:“是不是下雨了?” “没有啊。”一溜出口,自己马上感觉到了第一滴雨。老天就像听到了我的答案觉得我羞辱祂,马上嘀嗒嘀嗒下雨了!

两人都吃着汤料配饭,店里又满座了,我们只好等店方打开大阳伞。等了一阵子,怎么还没来?

看雨没有要变小的感觉,他打开了伞,我们默默的站着,走也不是,不走也不是,只能两人傻傻的站在一把小伞下捍卫我们的食物。

店主终于发现下雨开始搭棚时已经大雨到不行了。周围的人都躲到店里去了,只剩我们两个傻瓜还围在桌旁。店主冲冲忙忙地搭了一个棚,那个棚就为我们搭的。帅吧。LOL 

一坐下,他又说:“和我吃晚餐就是会很多怪怪的经验。”

亲爱的,这种经验多少人有呢?就是以后我们不能在一起,至少我会是曾经和你从小伞吃饭吃到大棚底下的人。这种怪怪的,让人哭笑不得的经验,再多我都愿意。

That's what J_Fush has to say~ Au Revoir~ 

Tuesday, 25 August 2015

八点后的土豪

最近公司风靡用 “土豪”。

我们这些中下阶级上班族当土豪的机会…*叹* 

我们的土豪日子就是月尾还能吃得好。

今天为了等AEON的八点寿司二十巴(仙)优惠而在那里晃了十多分钟。Btw,觉得晃个十多分钟能得到几块钱折扣很值得的朋友们请举手……然后默默地到下头留下comment。我们找天一起哽饭盒。


到了某年龄就是会开始多愁善感。吃个饭盒都可以写文章的… 可是今天他说和他一起总是做些怪怪的事情。熟悉Mid Valley AEON 的朋友们都会知道收银台尾尾有排木凳子。我们买了饭盒,就坐那边吃。过后看见提款机旁有AEON招募员工的桌子空着,我们再搬到那里去。

怪怪吗…?并没有。哽饭盒其实也可以很开心。重点是坐在桌子对面,也开开心心在哽饭盒的是谁。

That's what J_Fish has to say~ Au Revoir~

P.s. 饭盒其实很好吃。很值得等。>_____< 

Sunday, 7 June 2015

The Not-so-great Depression

Was talking to my friend the other day and mentioned about bloggers. She said she doesn't read blogs that promote stuff, only the personal ones. I told her that I don't promote things, but looking back at my recent posts, I've turned into "one of those bloggers" *gasp**sigh*. (not paid to do any of them)

So here's something very personal.

I have a battle with depression.

I'm not writing this to get "are you okay?", "you're so brave", but instead, I want people to know how I got in and out of it.

A lot of factors threw me into the depressed state. Most of them could be settled if I had (a lot more) money, but love and work were the other big contributors.  

How I "detected" it
I went to a doctor because I had these "slight tremors" on my hands, and I had a bad chest pain over a period of a few weeks. It was on the left side so my fear was heart related. (I have a bad relationship with meat and oily food). The doctor couldn't find a problem for the chest pain, so he gave me pain killers, twice.  And for the tremors he gave me a test for hyperthyroid. The results came out normal and I asked what could be another cause, and he said: anxiety. I was crying every day during that period of time, and every little thing made me tear up. The doctor saw that I wasn't "normal" so he wrote a letter of recommendation for me to see a psychiatrist at PPUM. (You'll need one if you're going to a government shrink). I thought of going to a private psychiatrist, but I after knowing the price/hour, I decided that the bill would throw me deeper into depression.

I procrastinated on going to the psychiatrist because I told myself that I don't need one. (And the fact that they're only available during working hours helped fuel my procrastination). In the end, without realizing it, I got out of the depressed state.

I tried calling Befrienders but sadly, the guy who answered my call didn't seem interested to help.

After thinking and looking back, here are a few things that I did to help me crawl out of the pit:

1. Distract yourself
I was stuck with a very negative mindset so I couldn't think straight. Nothing matters anymore and nothing is interesting. If I died, no one would flash across my mind. There was no purpose in life and I was lost.

This part is the hardest to get past, but hang in there. 

Find something to distract yourself so that you don't have time to think. Find someone to hang out with. Volunteer somewhere and help others. Watch The Big Bang Theory or Modern Family from season. Let yourself be a couch potato.

2. Don't dwell at a place where you feel sad the most. 
For me, it was my room. I stayed back at work, hung out with my bitches. Anything to avoid being at home for long periods of time. 

3. Laugh it off. Seriously.
Find something that makes you laugh. Movies, comics, friends, etc. Cocoro introduced this Korean comic to me in an app called Webtoons. 
Specially recommending:  心灵的声音 (highly recommended, it's super funny!)
Recommended: 神之塔,高校之神 (got hooked with the storyline)

4. Break down your problems, solve them one by one. 
Problems look overwhelming when they gang up on you, but every problem could be broken into smaller problems. If you tear them up, you can solve them. Take baby steps.

Some problems can't be solved in a short time, but you need to come to terms with it. Take it slow. It will be better. 

5. Surround yourself with people who genuinely love you
When I went for the worse, only 2 people knew, and I'm glad that I confided in them, because they were the ones who pulled me up from this pit. My sister tried to help but I can't help but push her away. It's not that I don't appreciate her help, it's just that I just can't just welcome everyone in. 

Remember to hang out with people who care. There always will be someone who cares. 


I'm a lot better now. I have no idea if full recovery is possible, because I still slip into it once in awhile, but when I do, I go back to the "tips" and they (still) work.



Good luck!

That's what J_Fish has to say~ Au Revoir~
p.s. If you know someone who's going through this, the worst thing to say is "cheer up". It's like asking someone who's hungry to "feel full". It doesn't work.

If you're going through this and need someone to talk to but are too shy to admit it to your friends or family, send me an email at jellyfishseawater@gmail.com. 

Wednesday, 3 June 2015

I want that long hair slicked back... ponytail


Chaneling Taylor Swift to talk about hair problems *sigh*

Exhibit A

Miranda Kerr. Hot momma (literally) with beautiful features from (head to toe).

Exhibit B
Cara Delevigne. Hot tomboyish (also) with beautiful features from head to toe.

Exhibit C
Me. With... slightly above average features.. from head to toe.  
Though I've received praises for my super straight hair before.
I guess it's a good feature if you're into that. 

Anyways,
What does exhibit A, B and C have in common?
(not-so slicked back) Ponytails!
What does exhibit A, B and C NOT have in common?
Model career, distinctive facial features, and balding 5head (please refer to exhibit C).

I have a balding 5head. 
It used to be 5head but now the right side is on the incline (pun intended) toward becoming a 6 head.

I don't want to go bald before I turn 30 can?
Also, I would like to one day be able to tie my hair up like that and not have people ask if my work is really stressful. --_______--lll



The corners go up really high instead of a normal curve. T^T

This means I can't have anything more than 7/3 side parting because it'll show that one side of my hair is really thin, and the balding corners will pop. 

I can't have middle parting because my face is not oval enough for it,
and I can't have a square fringe because my scalp is very, very oily. 

I wash my hair every morning and by around 1pm, my fringe starts looking greasy like this. 


Not exaggerating. 

If you know me, you'll know I've basically tried every "safe for work" hairstyle there is because I'm still constantly on the search for a hairstyle that suits me. 

I did some googling and found some info and causes on hair loss or (in a fancy way) alopecia. Going to list out a few until I get lazy. 

1. 91% of our hair is made up of keratin, a type of protein?
A lack of protein will stop hair growth. 
If you suddenly eat a lot less protein (mainly meat, fish, eggs, ), you might face this problem. 

2. Stress is a common cause for hair loss
That's why successful people usually have really little hair wtf. =X I'm on my way towards success lol. Feeling stressed will mess up the life cycle of your hair. That's why the new ones don't or are slow in growing, and the old ones fall off. 

3. Genetics could be a bitch 
What they say IS true. If you want to know how your spouse looks like when they're old, look at their parents, especially when it comes to hair. 

4. Weight could be more than you lose
One of the causes for alopecia a.k.a hair loss is dramatic weight loss. If you're suffering from anorexia or bulimia, chances are, hair loss would jump onto the bandwagon of your problems. Your body (and those around you) would be shocked  with the dramatic change and it would need around 6 months time to adjust to the situation (talk about a slow reaction).

This company Jonsson Protein says that all our hair problems can be solved with protein. The company uses technology from USA and their own formula to solve hair problems, like male and female pattern baldness, dandruff hair loss, spot baldness, post-natal baldness, menopausal hair loss, premature grey hair and chemically damaged hair. 
 (seems like woman have to face more of these hair loss problems T^T)

They boast of "Visible results in 1 session" and I'm soooooooooooo ready to try it. 
Sponsorship can? =X
I'm so broke I can't bother being shameless anymore.

Might just visit them one day coz they their first trial is only RM28. They provide scalp scan so maybe I can finally find out what my goddang hair problem is. (Hopefully not genetics wtf) 
And they have an outlet in Mid Valley and if you don't know yet, I'm working here now. 

Can give me a call if you want to treat me lunch/ dinner. 
*still shameless*

That's what J_Fish has to say~ Au Revoir~